My Story's Keeper

It's always been one of my life's goals to discover my family's ancestry. I know that while half of my family was in slavery, my mother's side of the family were Native Americans who fled to Scotland/Ireland. The amount of information that I can learn from my grandmother about my family can be found on 4 pieces of semi-faded yellow lined paper; that's it. I just wanna know my history. I wrote this piece as an outreach to the questions I have about searching for the past in order to embrace my future with a more stable foundation and a stronger sense of self confidence.....

Right, here among the trees and as I whisper to the vines.
Hearing all the stories that they keep.
Longing to remember who my people are and why
Wanting just to know the truth I dream.

Hopeful to be learning all the secrets that they hold
Desires to be glad to soon beseech them.
Never shall I turn to where cages keeping me
From all the things I'm meant to be I see them.

And Right here, can't resist
This sudden need to risk.

That right here, takes me to the sun
Breaking morning right here, long
To seek just one, who is a part of right here, hidden by the signs.

I hope to see one day
Still I'd pray.
Just one day,
I'd stay,
right here.

All my life I've dreamed of drifting through the skies.
Free to chance but hopeful just to see.
All my years I've wondered just how I came to be
Wanting to believe that I reach them.

If I could most resist
The touch; ancestors kiss.

But right here, all along the stars
I hear them trailing, out here
Wounded by the sun,
and yet unknowing how here,
 I'd love to freely run.

Along we'll be content,
Long to stand,
Know you're gone, no
I'm wrong.

Just a sense
Hold suspense.
Hearts immense
No expense.

Just one day,
right here,
I'd stay.

Cannot fear
I know you're here
Cannot say
Forget you; no way.

Won't regret
Won't withstand
I don't know
How this ends.

Just to find,
what's real,
Right here.

All I hope to finally realize my life
More than just the simple things I see.
Hearing all around me the voices as they speak
Sing the song I longed to dream and seek them.

If I was in the clear
I'd pray to know they're here.

And right here, all alone I stand.
Facing the winds, right here
The true moment,
to stay forever.

Right here, long to understand
The way I feel,
some where,
Could I dare?
Just to find,
What's truly mine,

Hope I may
Could I stay?
Just to spend,
one day,
right here.

Right here among the leaves and wonders left before the sky.
Breathing but the sunshine it may keep.
All along I wondered if I'm meant to be alive
Never known the ancestors I bleed.

If I was to have missed
This longing moments' twist.

But right here, I can feel the sun
Take a moment, right here
All alone but one,
who stays forever.

Right here, just to taste the sun
And where i'll be, won't end
The strength they send.

Won't resist
Won't depend
On my own, No
I won't bend.

How I'd stay
one day,
Right here.

Ignite

Can't say sorry
Can't fully blame.
That bitter story
Where hope never came.

Take it down
I once could dare.
Talk of the town
An unruly pair.

Once as stars fell
Race me to the top.
I learned not to dwell
On half hopes twice shot.

Lost in my eye
Can no longer disguise.
Thought to comply
But still can't satisfy.

Pacing through this
No love can resist.
Past time wished to reminisce
Shaken, false chance of bliss.

Lost in my eye
I cant deny.
Lost in the sky
Like the fourth of July.

Sink to the bottom line
Drifting from the cloudy skies.
Take back what should be mine
Lead by the light of fireflies.

Thought to comply
But never could satisfy.
Can no longer deny
The things living inside.

Tied within unjust lace
Dying, now love it may bleed.
Tried to find its longing place.
But see, can't defy to succeed.

The Race

But dusk wanes and moon falls.
And sun rays of winter crawls.
Never the same, still trance us all.

I could have it all
Take down these walls
What's our story?

Got to claim what's mine
Staying clear, of
doubt and wonder.

What's in store, left undone
Cant fake it just to make it
Can wait no longer.

'Least I past the test
No time to rest
Try my loudest.

Race me to the town
Awaiting sings, soaring towers.
Bending at the seams; broken means
I build it louder!

A world without them seems
What does it mean?
To break my wonderings?

Dying so sweetly
Never tries
To imitate me.

I was in the dark
This tired heart
Thought I could.

Wounds never found
Glowing skies year round
Breaking down but never bound

"Strut"

Don't be something you're not. Be happy with who you are and never back down from a dream, anything is possible...go above and beyond. STRUT. YO. STUFF.

They say I'm a simple dream
Only good for what they believe.
Down, praying on my knees
I'm more then what America sees.

Stuck inside
No end in sight.
Survive on my own
In the daring night.

Fight it alone
My life's delight.
Blinding light
My dreams well in sight.

I'm doing just fine
Givin' all I've got.
Won't talk for talk
Watch me strut my walk!